Saturday, December 13, 2008

Sweet Sweet Fantasy Poetry Saturday

Another poem....

But, first I wanna take a quick moment and tell everyone thanks again for reading and sharing your responses. It really really means a great deal to me.

I want to say a particular thank you to those of you who I don't know personally (about whom I've recently become aware) but still read and comment.

THANK YOU!

So the poem for this week--its a little racy (to shatter the clean chaste image I know you've all held of me for so long)

Share your thoughts please and have a wonderful day!

Native tongue

A lot like the vowels in Finnish or Hebrew
None of them are mine
Not mine at all
But I try desperately
To form them
To remember one of you
To call the other to me
To find a little sound of one
On the lips of the other
To feel the touch of you
Escaping in the breath of the other
As if the meaning of a man
Is summoned by the way
His native tongue feels
Against my teeth…

© 2006, 2008

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

"Blown across the earth..."

the Tian Shan Mountains in Kyrgyzstan

Last night on the Metro coming home, I couldn't help watching a young man, clearly of Central Asian stock, holding a train ticket. The ticket was immediately recognizable--by its pale orange and white coloring and by the gold reflective seal in one of its corners --as a Russian National Railway ticket. I have held several of these types of tickets myself when I've traveled long distances within Russia and most often as I travel to Finland and back. So, I was rather sure that this young man was getting ready to travel somewhere rather far.

Both the young man with the train ticket and I were standing in the corner of the Metro car as all the seats were taken. I was tired from my long day of teaching and was holding the metal railing and listening to NPR or maybe just some music on my iPod. As I listened and tried to mind my own business, I kept glancing over at the young man as he pulled the ticket out of its plastic cover and examined it--as he held it close to his face and read the block lettering on it.

The Metro came to a stop at the station before my own and several seats opened up. I sat down and the young man with the ticket sat next to me. I sorta tried not to watch as he continued to read and re-read his ticket. He ran his fingers across the paper and turned it over and read the small print on the backside--all the terms and conditions. When he turned it over again, I stole a quick glance at the destination. Bishkek, Kyrgyzstan.


Bishkek the capital of Kyrgyzstan


Before I continue maybe I should talk a little bit about Moscow and the people who make up a sizable portion of the city's various manual and labor-intensive workforces.

First of all, many Russians are fond of saying "Moscow is not Russia." What they mean is that Moscow is a different world--socially, culturally and most significantly economically--than the rest of Russia. In Moscow the average salary is really comparable--and in some instances better--than the average American salary. What you pay for lunch here is basically what you are gonna pay in New York--sometimes more. What you pay for an apartment here is basically what you are gonna pay in New York--sometimes more. Everywhere you look there are cranes and rising concrete and steel buildings. This just isn't true for the rest of Russia. In fact, the difference in salary and development between Moscow and the rest of Russia--and the rest of the former Soviet Union--is pretty staggering.

Moscow is booming (or was--we'll see what happens with this crisis) and there is work to be done and money to be made. So to Moscow from all of Russia and beyond flock those looking for work. Particularly visible-- among the construction workers, the street cleaners, the janitors and floor buffers at shopping centers, the restroom attendants, the buss boys and kitchen girls--are people from Central Asia--the former Soviet Republics of Kazakhstan, Tajikistan, Uzbekistan, Turkmenistan and Kyrgyzstan.

Many Russians are quick to point out that there is no racial discrimination in Russia--the Soviet Union was a united nation of many peoples and ethnicities-- but those same people are equally quick to laugh at jokes that are less than kind in their portrayal of "Tajiki" or "Kazakhi" and to point out how much the influx of Central Asian laborers--legal and illegal--has lowered the average salary.

If I had to find an analogous phenomenon in the US, I would point to the many workers from Mexico and other countries of Latin America who provide so much of the labor that keeps America going. In fact, if you want a shorthand for understanding the way Central Asians are treated and seen here in Moscow, just take a moment and think of the views and opinions expressed concerning your Mexican American neighbors. Of course, there are many details and specifics which differ, but I find myself feeling similarly about the plight of the Central Asian Laborers here in Moscow as I do about the Mexican Immigrants back home.

New Years is the holiday in Russia. A big 10 day holiday is coming up and as I sat next to this young Central Asian fellow holding his ticket--presumably back home--I, maybe rather romantically, began to imagine his family meeting him at the station in Bishkek. I began to picture his mother-- who probably sent him off to Moscow from the same station--smiling and hugging him as he got off the train. I wondered if he was bringing his family back in Kyrgyzstan presents or money. Maybe he had a girlfriend or wife back in Kyrgyzstan. I wondered, was he going home just for the holiday or was he going home to stay? I looked at his hands holding the ticket and guessed at his own feelings about going home. Was he excited? Did he miss Kyrgyzstan? Maybe he was going home out of an obligation? Maybe he wanted to stay in Moscow? He held the ticket up to his face again and ran his finger across the gold seal and I decided that he was excited to be going home.

Of course, I could have been entirely wrong. I was clearly projecting onto this young man my own imaginings and fantasies. I was myself playing into racial and ethnic stereo-types. The whole narrative I'd created for this young man could have been utterly wrong. He could have very well been born and raised in Moscow, he could have been a young rising executive at a bank and was simply visiting Kyrgyzstan for pleasure. He could have bought the ticket for a friend...anything...who knows.

But, as I sat there next to him, I suddenly felt an unexpected kinship with him--or maybe just with the man I imagined he was. He and I were a like in many ways--that man. We were both working here in this big strange city hundred and hundreds of miles away from our families and loved ones. We were both foreigners who had come to another country for work that we somehow needed and now here--in Moscow--we were both subject to the opinions and perspectives of those we worked for and among. I considered how different our respective jobs might be and I also acknowledged that, perhaps, the opinions and perspectives which we daily encountered were also probably quite different.

Still....I thought and I remembered an incident that happened last week. There is some construction and remolding work being done in the building where my company's office is. One evening last week, as I was leaving the office, I was stopped in the dusky light by two police officers asking to see my documents. I showed them my Passport, Registration and Work Visa but they insisted that I needed an additional Work Permit ID Card. When I informed them that I didn't need a Work Permit ID Card because I was a teacher and by law my Work Permit was held by my employer and that I only needed to carry my Work Visa, the retorted that they didn't know of any such law and insisted that I needed a Work Permit ID Card. I said, well that's not my understating and I didn't have a Work Permit ID Card. One of the officers stomped over to group of young men standing a few feet off. I quickly noticed that this group was made up entirely of--what appeared to me to be--young Central Asian-looking men. The officer spoke to one of the young men and I saw the young man hand him a small card. The officer returned and in his hand he held a Work Permit ID Card and told me that I needed "one of these". At just this moment, my boss Yulia appeared and the problem was eventually solved--but not without a lot of huffing and puffing and posturing and squirming from the officers. They were quite disappointed. You see, they were hoping to get a little cash. That's how it works here. If you get stopped by a traffic officer--he doesn't want to give you a ticket--he wants 1000 rubles ($35). The construction happening in the building, no doubt, drew the officers to the site in hopes of finding some undocumented workers and some cash.

It made me mad--this incident--with the police officers. What right did they have to stand out there and wait for me and try to get a bribe off a poor American teacher? I was here legally and was providing a necessary service. I thought of the thousands of workers from Central Asia who were also here in Moscow working hard--building this city and cleaning its streets and washing its bathrooms and wiping clean its restaurant tables and buffing its shopping center floors all glossy and bright. I thought of all of these men and women from Central Asia who probably didn't have a boss like Yulia who would come rushing out to their aid when the police officers stopped them. I thought of their families back in Kyrgyzstan and Turkmenistan and Tajikistan--only a border away from Afghanistan--who most likely depended on the money they sent or brought home.

I thought of the millions of men and women in the United States from Mexico and from Latin America and from Asia and from Africa and from all over the world who were working hard and long days and nights to try to make a living and support their families.

I thought of my own ancestors--Irishmen on boats coming to New York and Boston--working in the slums of those 19th century American cities. I thought of them hungry and brave and strong and full of hope and struggle. I thought of them moving west to Michigan to work and work and marry and marry and bear children and more children and eventually me-- here in Moscow working next to a young man from Kyrgyzstan waiting with an orange and gold ticket back home for New Years...

The Metro came to a stop. Molodozhnaya. My station. I got up and exited and I noticed that the young man with the train ticket exited as well. I turned right to leave the station and he turned left and disappeared into the Moscow winter night and into the crowd. I was still thinking of his holiday train ride home and his waiting family as I walked the 10 minutes to my apartment building--wishing him well and wishing that I too was going to see my family back home.


Kyrgyzstan... pretty huh?


learn more about Kyrgyzstan here: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kyrgyzstan

Friday, December 5, 2008

Sweet Sweet Fantasy "Poetry" Friday

Train Tracks by Bob Dylan
(seriously...did you know he painted?)



So...I think I am going start posting some of my poems regularly....

Here is one I wrote like 4 years ago when I was on my way home to Utah from my Grad School interviews in New York City--going home on a train (which should be, from the home, pretty evident).

Anyway, I pulled it out a couple weeks ago and did some re-working. I like re-visiting poems and other things which I have written years ago. The old writing always makes me cringe and feel a little ashamed, naked and nauseated--which in turn makes me wanna fix it....

So, here it is....after some fixin' (in another few years it may get some more fixin')

please share your thoughts.



Ode to myself, reading on a train.


For fear of the luminous steel bird’s belly,
and bending to my tight-breathing tears,
I take the iron winding beast from Penn Station,
twenty two hundred miles across this country.

Through merging images on glass,
eagles on the Hudson and herons on the Colorado
fly away from the pages of my books,
always asking me who I am.

I am along the gray, green, windy waves of Michigan,
with the hazy, black towers of Chicago forward and beyond.
I am suspended on these rails above the fading grains,
rusting combines and turbines and dying cities falling away.

I am chasing silver foxes above Denver with my eyes
and mourning little metal bugs on nation-wide windows.
I am joining concrete and clay at Grand Junction,
touching bleeding earth and turning inking histories.

O Omaha, O Pioneers,
and Tennessee and Tony!
O Henry David, O Fyodor,
and Walt—the child of Joyce and Wilde!

I am not a real Irishman, Englishman, a Frenchman or American.
To be true, I am not, by generations, a good Mormon boy, either.
I am not a hunter-rider of the plains; a farmer of the Eastern forests
And I am not—yet—a willing member of that band marching forth from the Castro.

I am just along these amber green lands,
reading white and blustered skies.
A passenger for fear—and
counting every breath.

© 2005, 2008 Nathan T. Wright


Night Train by Kent Whitaker

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

I have a confession: It's about William Faulkner...

I've never finished anything by William Faulkner.

Does anybody else have a problem with Faulkner?


William Faulkner, Pulitzer and Nobel prize winning American writer

I am sure he was a great guy, but....man...

I swear I have tried to read "As I Lay Dying" 12 times and only got half way through...Who is talking? Is it Jewel or Darl or Addie or Dewey or... Boo or Scout or Jem or Mr. Ewell.... I never know...

I've tried to pick up "The Sound and the Fury" because I just know there must be something by Faulkner I can get into. I know there is a huge gap in my literary understanding without at least having read Faulkner. I mean how can one claim to love literature--or worse, claim to be a writer, without having read this American 20th century Master? So, I started "The Sound and the Fury" and tried to get acquainted with these "unreliable narrators" -- but I was also reading "Ethan Frome" by Ms. Edith Wharton at the same time and I eventually I just chose to read about Ethan and his sick wife Zeena and her cousin up in stark turn of the century Massachusetts and therefore I never really got to the Compson family down in Yoknapatawpha County, Mississippi...

Is it just the stream of consciousness thing? I mean, I've got through some of Joyce. (A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man) With difficulty, yes, but maybe his Irish setting and all that repressed- by- Catholicism -sexuality are more interesting to me than rambling less- than- literate- southerners burying their dead mother? I also genuinely like Virginia Woolf. Though I can't claim to have read a lot of her either, I have gotten through a couple of her books. Maybe Woolf's and Joyce's "streams" of consciousness are just more like my own stream...

James Joyce as a young man


Who knows?Virginia Woolf (she was pretty and sad...)

So, I've never finished anything by Faulkner. Until yesterday.

The last few days I've been shifting through, discovering, surveying and just straight up reading numerous American short stories as I prepare the curriculum for my Creative Writing Course. It is a lot of fun. In one of the American short story anthologies I have there is a piece called "The Old People" by Mr. William Faulkner...ever read it?

I didn't think so...

Anyway, "the Old People" is no more than 10 pages long. I kept skipping it as I flipped through the book, but finally this sense of guilt--or shame--I have about never having gotten through Faulkner got the better of me. I determined I would read it-- no matter what. " Come on, it's only 10 pages," I thought....

Listen, don't read Faulkner in bed, people.... unless you wanna fall asleep.

I am happy to report that I have both found a method for falling asleep and-- after three frustrating, but restful nights-- have finally finished something by Mr. William Faulkner!

Problem is... I have no idea what "The Old People" is about or what I read....

Faulkner. What is up with him?

Thank you for all your suggestions on sleep. I have been meditating, stretching, drinking tea, warm milk, and, of course, reading Mr. Faulkner in bed...

It is working!

Have a good day and please share your thoughts. Convert me to Faulkner.